“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. Whoever hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him.”
Some readers may wonder how close the heavenly Father is to His children in their everyday lives. Even in very trivial matters, He is always there to help and advise them. Everyone who lives their life in love with Jesus Christ is aware of His presence.
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In the pedestrian zone, I pressed €5 into the hands of two beggars. Later, I regretted having given so little.
Then Jesus said, “It is not the money alone that is the blessing, but the look in the eyes of those in need and the handshake you give them. Whenever the heart is in it, I am there too. I am blessing and liberation. I am the giver and the receiver, and you are the mediator.”
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In the subway, I gave a bottle collector a euro, said a few words, and shook his hand goodbye. Afterwards, I had to hold back tears, so much joy and love did I feel.
Jesus said: “It is not the euro you gave that gladdens My heart, but your words and your handshake. For in doing so, you shook My hand, since I am at home in the least among us. Truly, every act of love, no matter how small, gladdens Me beyond words and bestows divine blessings on both the giver and the receiver.”
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I felt the urge to pray for two guests at our house. However, since I did not feel any love for my neighbor at that moment, I secretly told Jesus that I could not and did not want to pray like that, because without love and affection, prayer would be meaningless.
Then he said, “You have often prayed with devotion and love. I will put your love from that time—that is, Me—into your seemingly emotionless prayer, if you wish. Then it will be as if you were praying for your guests with love, and your prayer will bear divine fruit.”
And he looked at me with joyfully shining eyes when I was amazed that he could make this possible.
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My wife and I spent two days in the mountains. In my know-it-all attitude, I told Jesus that, in my opinion, two weeks of seclusion were necessary right now in order for me to allow His Spirit to further capture and permeate me.
Understanding my lack of trust, he replied, “Well, I will make two weeks out of two days for your soul. If you accept the gift and put its contents into practice with love, it will be as if you had actually spent two weeks with me in the mountains and we had grown much closer as a result. But you must also believe without doubt that it will happen and that all things are possible for Me in heaven and on earth.”
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Sometimes I wish that Jesus would appear physically so that I could embrace him physically.
He replied, “Of course, I could appear to you in a solid body. But you can only recognize My essence in My resurrected body, which you see with your spiritual eyes. A spiritual embrace, as you have already experienced, is incomparably more intense than a physical one—and basically, a physical embrace is always a spiritual one. The more you love Me, the more intimate our encounter will become. When you are once completely rooted in Me in all your days and nights, our union will bring you a bliss that cannot be achieved in the material world. Then you will also
see My wounds and comprehend My mercy in them in a depth that you have not yet recognized. Therefore, be patient and continue to work on yourself with Me, and have confidence that our plan will succeed.”
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After looking into Jesus’ eyes, I made the presumptuous request that He grant me a gaze like His, for it is the most trustworthy and sincere gaze one can imagine.
He replied: “First your heart must become My heart, then you will see with My eyes and I will look at the world together with you. Then My light will shine through your eyes and deify your gaze. And our two pairs of eyes will merge into one pair of eyes, and many people will recognize My gaze in yours.”
With these words, Jesus touched me so deeply and intimately that I almost collapsed physically from love for him.
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I have an agreement with Jesus: Whenever I renounce a special satisfaction and sacrifice it for a day, a person comes onto the path of salvation, and one day I will be able to welcome him in the spiritual world with a brotherly embrace. One day, this plan was placed in my heart again, and I waited for the name or face of the person intended for this. Then Jesus said, “Today you shall make the sacrifice for Me.”
I was surprised, but after a moment’s reflection, I realized that he wanted to deepen my love for him in this way. His words gave my heart strength, it became strong in love and gave me success.
And he said, “Yes. All power belongs to me in heaven and on earth!”
I was always allowed to make the sacrifice of renunciation for pleasant fellow human beings. One day, Jesus told me that it also and above all applies to difficult and malicious people. Those who cause harm, who betray, insult, or deceive, who do not like you and show it. You must first make this love your own. Just as the man Jesus had to reclaim his all-forgiving divine love, so too must his followers fight for this love. In loving one’s enemies, the weaknesses of the soul become its strongest weapons.
The Spirit leads me to the young Jesus. I am allowed to look into his soul and see how he struggles alone with the base desires of fallen humanity. In his divine endeavor, every imperfect action is an infinite burden for him. He suffers silently, but never complains. Often the struggles last for days. It is impossible to put into words what forces are and must be at work here, so that God, who has separated himself from his love, may become one with himself again, so that the divine soul may become one with the divine spirit again, so that the Son may become one with the Father again. Again and again, Jesus manages to allow himself to be completely filled with heavenly love; not a single evil thought can conquer him. Step by step, he moves forward, his soul growing ever stronger, divine consciousness taking possession of him.
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Father’s Day
On this day, I am with our Father in Heaven. Devotedly, I turn my consciousness to Him, offering myself with my whole soul. I deeply feel His closeness and intimate connection – my heart grows warmer and warmer until my soul is noticeably ablaze. I almost feel as if my body is dissolving in this oneness with God’s love.
He says: “Not many dedicate this day to Me as you do. Your devotion and your love for Me delight Me greatly. Soon, each of your days will be like this one. Then your life will become one great Father’s Day, and every beat of your heart will be a beat of My heart. Amen, I say this, God of Infinity, Bridegroom of your soul.”
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After difficult struggles
“Calm down again, My soul. Reflect on the fact that you showed good will yesterday; this testifies to your willingness to overcome. Continue to pursue your goals in spiritual and professional terms. Make an effort, calm down, do not let
yourself be destroyed in your visions and plans. I will make good what you achieve. My words are always with you, use them, listen to Me, but this requires inner silence and devotion. Trust Me completely in every way. My blessing is with you, you know that. I am close to you, closer than you ever thought. Look to Me, you feel My gaze, My kindness and care, My infinite patience with your mistakes and weaknesses. You need Me; without Me there are only wrong turns and deceptions. Therefore, reflect on this again and again throughout the day, feel secure in Me in your often recurring darkness. Do not push Me away when Satan knocks. I give you the power to command him to depart. But you can only do this together with Me.”
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When I had once again sinned gravely against love, the words of Jesus on the cross came to mind: “Father,
forgive them, for they know not what they do!”
He said, “Yes, I spoke these words for you too, as I did for each of My lost children. Each of My words is valid for all time and eternity.”
I then asked for an explanation of the sentence: “My God, why have You forsaken Me?”
He replied: “My Divine nature had to withdraw completely from Me, for only My body could and should die. My soul felt unspeakable pain and torment – not only because of the flesh, but also because of the lostness of My children. The cry for help from My dying self, abandoned by the Father—that is, My incarnate personality separated from divine love in the agony of death—thus represents the incessant cry for help from all tormented bodies and souls in this world. My crucifixion represents My will, which is bound to matter and which forms and sustains the material universe. My death on the cross testifies to the imminent death of the old earth; the three days in the tomb reveal the coming three days of darkness; My resurrection stands for the resurrection of the new earth – and for the resurrection of the entire fallen creation into eternal spiritual life.”
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When asked whether his wounds still hurt, Jesus replied that I must first understand what his wounds mean, and he continued:
“The work of God’s redemption is infinite in itself and outside itself for all eternity, and so is the depth of the wounds. For the present time, the pain of My wounds symbolizes the inability of love to act in the turning away of My children’s hearts. In this, My wounds still bleed, and My heart is pierced daily by the deluded and blinded people of this earth. But every loving thought toward Me is balm for My wounds and alleviates God’s suffering in this time. Oh, how much I long for the love of My children, it is beyond words.
Only when all matter, all life in endless space, will be redeemed and spiritualized, will My pain of love finally dissolve in the harmony of all life ever created. And there will be joy and a life such as never before in eternity and infinity.”
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When I asked Jesus to point out the weaknesses of this book so that I could improve or remove them, he
said, “You are the weakness of this book.”
Surprised, I asked, “What do you mean?”
He replied, “You should remove yourself from this book. But you should not remove your insights and experiences; rather, renounce your attachment to what is written. Do not be conceited; you are only the administrator of spiritual gifts. When the book is finished, let it go, do not bind yourself to it, then the words will be free and have a completely different power than if you claim your own place in it. If you step back and give Me the book, I can live in the words and unfold My light and My love in and from them.”
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I was concerned that the book would find the right publisher and the necessary distribution.
Jesus said: Why are you so lacking in faith! Why are you worried? Do you not believe that I Myself will take care of what I commission? Leave everything to Me with peace of mind. Those who are meant to read it will read it. Those who are not suited to this message will open the pages that do not appeal to them – and soon close the book again. Many will
also criticize it, be annoyed by it, and attack you. But in doing so, they attack Me, for I am responsible for the actions of My children. Trust Me even more, concern yourself only with love, let your heart fall into My heart—and all will be well.”
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Jesus led me to the following lines from a novel:
“From now on, my son, this apartment is yours, and no room is closed to you. Providence has chosen you. Never before has everything gone as easily as it did tonight. From now on, you are my son, even against your will. Providence has something great in store for you. The tree that has blossomed for only a few before you will blossom for you.”
Aware that these words also applied to me, I said, “Yes, it is indeed something great that you have in store for me.”
To which he replied: “You are right, but you are only one among many. And the greater your task, the smaller you must become. The greatness of spiritual tasks is always determined by the smallness of My children. If you want to be great in your destiny, you will displace Me from it and obscure My Spirit in your words. Even if you already see many of your divine possibilities, they will only be realized in accordance with your humble devotion. I have already given you much, but this is nothing compared to your still undeveloped talents, and a true manifestation of My essence can happen in you and through you. However, if you do not continue with Me and in Me on your predestined path, surrendering yourself completely to My love in every aspect of your life, and remain great in your words and deeds, it will remain small in your destiny. I must demand everything from My servants so that I can give everything. And always remember: pain humbles you violently and seemingly mercilessly, but love tenderly permeates you with humility.”
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I said to Jesus, “There are so many people who are much more loving and mature than I am. Wouldn’t they be better suited for this end-time task? And my appearance does not correspond at all to the imagined image of a prophet … !?”
He explained: “In fact, I could make anyone a prophet, but they would also have to want it. I take anyone I can get. For basically, every person is called to proclaim My Word—but who wants to serve Me? Let everyone ask themselves if they are willing to sacrifice their lives to Me and truly put themselves in My service. I tell you: there is not one in a hundred thousand. All over the earth today, I find only a few children devoted to Me, and I still have to fight for them so that they finally let go of their chains and follow Me in humility and devotion—you are the best example of this. But in the coming years, many divine seeds will sprout, and in the field of love, numerous light souls will begin to germinate and sprout, and precious fruits will appear. And I will harvest and gather the fruits into baskets and offer them to people as food—and whoever tastes them will attain eternal life.
Incidentally, a person’s outward appearance is of no importance whatsoever. I look only at the soul forms of My servants.”
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Another time, Jesus told me that it was up to me whether I wanted to take up the apostolic ministry he had offered me. It should not be a compulsion. My office could also be transferred to someone else. I should think again about whether I really wanted it. He asked me this question because of my lack of seriousness and lukewarmness in so many spiritual commitments.
“I definitely want it. I can no longer imagine life without this ministry!” I replied.
Jesus: “Then you must try harder. Time is pressing. The time is near. I need fully trained messengers and proclaimers who are strong and unshakeable in the storm of the world. My servants must also have overcome all the temptations of the world, otherwise they will fall at the first attack and, as supposed children of God, bear witness to the world of
weakness and fear. My power is mighty in the weak, but only if they surrender themselves completely to Me in their weakness. Do you understand?”
He said this with love and gentleness, without any reproach, but I felt the significance of the situation and the unpleasant truth of his words. He then once again presented me with the seriousness of the situation and my future. I saw relatives and friends turning away, I saw the ostracism of Christ’s servants, I saw the laughter at the coming judgment of the world, I saw scorn and mockery. I became fearful and anxious, and I was overcome with great sadness and despair about my calling.
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In Jesus’ presence
One cannot imagine a more sympathetic and amiable face. The most sincere, truthful, lively, loving eyes that
say, “You are free from all guilt, you are accepted and have arrived.” The open-hearted gaze that satisfies every
longing in an instant and invites with the words: “Come! I will show you what is yours in Me” and “You are ho-
me.”
Jesus says: “The souls who are allowed to see Me see Me in different clothes, forms, and faces, depending on the image they have made of Me or the idea they have of Me. That is why there are so many different descriptions of Me. My appearance also changes according to the qualities that a soul primarily attributes to Me. You have not formed an image of Me, neither of My outward appearance, nor, above all, of My essence, therefore you see Me truly. The more humble and devoted a spirit is in love, the clearer its knowledge of Me becomes. Just as its surroundings become ever more beautiful and loving as it perfects itself, so too does My appearance become ever more lovely and true to it. Thus, I am also the Master of Infinity in My outer form.
My bridal souls, whose essence is now only love and who are actually Myself according to their humble devotion, see Me as I see Myself and see themselves as I see them. Only they enter into the secrets of My Heart. Truly, no ear has ever heard, no eye has ever seen what I have prepared for those who love Me above all else!”
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