“When the bridegroom is there, the bride does not need to hunger.”
The result depends on the goal one pursues with fasting. If one strives only for weight reduction and purification of the body, that is what one will experience; there will be no conscious penetration into unexplored areas of the soul. Fasting then serves a purely physical purpose – with consistently beneficial effects on body and soul.
If a person is on the spiritual path and has problems overcoming their desires and passions, they can use fasting as a support to achieve certain goals and objectives. Here, the physical cleansing and weight loss that result from abstaining from food play only a minor role.
Fasting not only releases and burns disease-causing waste products and toxins in the body’s cells, but also releases the toxins stored in the soul – these are ingrained behavior patterns and conditioning of various kinds that prevent the spiritual seeker from progressing – which then need to be processed. This makes fasting a process that challenges the person completely. They now penetrate the deeper layers of their outward-directed desires. They enter the space where their attachment to the transitory things of the world is revealed. Here, the selfish energies that constantly rage in the soul are mercilessly exposed, as they have been stripped of the cloak of earthly satisfaction.
That is why this realization is initially very unpleasant and humiliating—it throws people off balance. But it is precisely this humiliation that opens up previously hidden areas of the soul to those who are spiritually seeking. Trusting fasting at the hand of the Father opens the door to realms of knowledge far removed from worldly pseudo-self-knowledge.
In the Bible, the optimal duration of fasting is set at 40 days. Every Christian who truly wants to awaken should undergo a long fast once, if their health and constitution allow it.
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During a longer period of secluded fasting, the desire for worldly consumption is revealed. Here one sees one’s tendency toward excessive and extravagant eating and drinking. One becomes aware of one’s dependence on all kinds of entertainment and pastimes in the media. One misses television, smartphones, and computers, from which one constantly receives new information that enables one to form a point of view and thus an opinion, in order to create apparent liveliness in a wide variety of identifications and perspectives. Above all this towers the (longing) addiction to recognition of professional and private activities, which lend the illusion of significance.
For the godless world, egocentric motivation and appreciation are existential necessities, but since these are usually based on external activities and affirmations without spiritual support, one can never find the
meaning and purpose of one’s existence. In the constant pursuit of earthly success and material indulgences, one misses out on one’s actual purpose in life, which is to find oneself in God.
Fasting offers the opportunity to penetrate hidden areas of consciousness. If one abstains from the omnipresent possibilities of gratification for a longer period of time, one enters a state in which the soul stands naked in the instability of its earthly, transitory striving. If one remains steadfast in this desert and does not run away from oneself, the support of a previously unknown foundation is revealed: Away from all worldly activity, a vitality opens up that exists independently of any external events. Here, man finds his spiritual identity; here, the heavenly Father grants lasting fulfillment to his child’s longing; here, the child of God finds his value in the love of Jesus Christ.
Many tears flow during this process; I have often wept before God in my wretchedness. But I have always felt his joy at my sincere and honest admission of my wrongdoings, and this affection has always given me comfort and confidence.
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On the spiritual path, certain guidelines cannot always be implemented immediately or at all, which can temporarily weaken the will. After initial resistance, fasting brings the soul back into balance. In the desert of fasting, it is purified and can emerge stronger from self-imposed abstinence. Thus, fasting is always a new beginning.
Fasting is a powerful weapon, especially in the battle against sexual urges. During this period of abstinence, the pleasure-seeking soul withdraws from the body, causing sensual desires to lose their influence. This sometimes feels a little strange, as the connection to the body loosens. Breathing becomes shallower and oxygen intake is temporarily reduced. This can sometimes result in headaches and poor concentration. Existing physical complaints may initially worsen.
If one accepts these conditions, they develop into a great blessing. Already in the first few weeks, the need for physical satisfaction is reduced. Continued fasting from the 3rd to the 6th week provides completely new insights into spiritual conditions. A feeling of freedom, lightness, and humility fills the soul. In this state, it can surrender itself completely to God, and the Father’s love causes the heart to blossom anew.
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Fast experiences
For days I have been wrestling with the base instincts and desires that are constantly presented to me. I see my insatiable appetite for good food and delicacies, I see my dependence on the mass media, I see my unbridled sexual desires, I see my desire for worldly recognition, I see my complacency and laziness, my dogmatism, arrogance, and presumption. And I see how these spiritual and material entanglements prevent liberation when we repeatedly give in to them.
Inner restlessness, hypersensitivity, and aggression alternate with resignation and the need to bow to the weaknesses of the soul. Retreat and silence would often be necessary, but this time I am fasting in my everyday working life. I repeatedly try to pray, but I cannot collect my thoughts. Nevertheless, I know that Jesus is there and stands by me, even if I do not feel his presence.
When the soul falls on the path of deprivation, the Father helps it up with the words: “Come, My child, get up
again and move on. Look ahead and not back! Those who look back will immediately fall again over the obstacles ahead. Always pay attention to the path and keep your goal in mind.”
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I earnestly asked God for an opportunity to retreat into solitude so that I could further detach myself from earthly constraints through prayer and fasting. Now an opportunity has arisen: the house of an acquaintance in a mountain village high above Lake Garda is perfect for this. During the summer months, it is bustling with activity, but now in November, only the locals are there. From the roof terrace, the view extends over
large parts of the lake, which, seen from above, lies peacefully and quietly in the valley . I will sit there for a long time, and my soul will become calm and clear.
My spiritual siblings have informed me that they will be there to support the process. But dark forces will also be present. They will harass me with their destructive energy and try to fill me with fear and doubt. I am familiar with this and am prepared. In Jesus’ name, I command them to depart—this has already happened in the past, so I know the balance of power between the forces that will clash.
Such a break is always a springboard into a new phase of life. The spiritual knowledge that has been revealed through abstinence and seclusion must then be lovingly integrated into everyday life, thereby becoming the property of the soul. This is the be-all and end-all of progressing on the spiritual path. This is where sincerity and faithfulness prove themselves. And this is where one takes the big and firm steps into the Father’s heart.
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Fasting in the solitude of the Swiss mountains. It is difficult to let go. Separation from my family takes effort. The sudden silence, the abstinence from worldly comforts and pleasures, unsettle the soul. But that is why I am here, to detach myself even more from the world and come closer to God, so that I can be a useful instrument of his love.
Inner struggles and deep peace alternate. Rarely have I cried and prayed so much. One evening, I feel so much love for my wife and children that the pain of separation almost takes my breath away. This state does not want to end—I am faced with a decision: go home or stay. But this is a test: Jesus or family. Although my heart is bleeding, I decide to wait and not run away. My soul is purified. My mindfulness increases, calm returns. After initial feelings of weakness, I am soon full of energy and drive and become a hiker in the mountains.
It was not I who called for the time out in the alpine pasture; Jesus placed this desire in me and made it possible. “I love you, Jesus!” – Now he is here. I press myself to his chest and the embrace should never end. Looking into his eyes leaves me speechless and thoughtless. Jesus’ love is now my nourishment, my heavenly bread, my heavenly wine. Without him, nothing; with him, everything. When the bridegroom is there, the bride does not need to hunger. He nourishes the soul and also the body. He shows me that the pain of separation from my family was and is his pain of love in my heart – and how much he longs to be with his children.
During a hike, I am suddenly separated from myself and see through my fallen humanity: “Oh God! That’s me!? I don’t want to go back there! That’s terrible! I don’t want to be this hectic and chaotic tangle of thoughts and feelings anymore!”
My soul is disillusioned and shaken, literally collapsing, gasping for breath, searching for support. Then the Father takes me in his arms, in his eyes, in his heart. An indescribable feeling of acceptance overwhelms me. Everything is good. Finally home. Love, love, love.
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The light nutrition process
Light nutrition means that you do not consume life energy through solid food, but directly – without the carrier substance matter. One way to do this is through the so-called light nutrition process, which became known in Australia in the early 1990s. This lasts three weeks, during which time you neither eat nor drink in the first week and consume only diluted juices in the following two weeks. That sounds pretty intense—and it is.
During the first week, it is said that spiritual beings perform surgery on you during the night between the third and fourth day, inserting an etheric drip into your spinal cord to prevent death from kidney failure or
dehydration. This initiates the transition process, and by the end of the first week, you already feel nourished.
The purpose of light nutrition is not to stop eating, but rather it is a tool for detaching oneself from the entrenched collective consciousness in order to be free for new spiritual experiences. According to the instructions, one should only undergo the light nutrition process if one is stable in soul and already has experience with fasting (detailed instructions and important information on the subject can be found in Michael Werner’s book “Leben durch Lichtnahrung” [Life through Light Nutrition]. I advise against other books on the subject, as they mostly contain spiritual nonsense).
I do not want to get involved with foreign entities in this process, but rather deepen my contact with Jesus Christ. Although I am not sure whether he approves of my plan or is simply holding back out of respect for my free will, I will carry out my plan in the hope that it will enable me to further detach myself from misalignments of the soul and earthly attachments.
First day:
Drank my last sip of water 12 hours ago. Since I am familiar with the symptoms of fasting, I am prepared for physical discomfort such as headaches, slight weakness and dizziness, and difficulty concentrating.
Second day:
Use this day for reflection and deeper attunement. The soul prays. I feel transparent and light. From fasting, I know that cravings often appear disguised as hunger. In our world of abundance, we hardly know what real hunger is anymore.
Third day:
I feel a little weaker today. Breathing is difficult. I feel cold because the body produces little heat without food. Tonight, I am supposed to undergo a spiritual operation to prevent death and convert the body to light nutrition. I place myself trustingly in Jesus’ hands.
Fourth day:
I didn’t notice anything about a nighttime operation. The feeling of weakness is increasing, I can no longer think clearly, I feel numb, but at the same time very irritable. This is the most extreme thing I have ever done. Not eating for four days is no problem, but not drinking is. I am now struggling with this process. Due to increased mental transparency, my own thoughts and words, as well as those of others, have an intensity that penetrates directly into the heart. The soul opens its darkest channels, everything that has been suppressed pushes to the surface, memories and traumas stored in the depths of consciousness are released. The thirst becomes overwhelming. I have kidney pain and am hyperventilating. In four days, my body has already lost 7 kg.
Day five:
At 188 cm tall and with a regular weight of around 88 kg, I am actually quite strong – and well trained from running marathons. But now I can no longer stand up due to weakness. This must be how a disabled person feels when their body does not obey them. It does not feel good. This is the death zone. Total retreat is now important. My wife and children are very worried, which is understandable. They see my misery, fear the worst, and beg me to end the process—but I remain stubborn as a mule.
Sixth day:
People’s voices become fluid. The brighter the voice, the purer and clearer the fluid. I listen to music with high singing voices and drink from it. Strangely enough, I feel increasingly stronger as the day goes on. Something is different… and everything that is different is good. In the evening, I have a coughing fit. Afterwards, I feel like I’ve been reborn – perhaps like a baby whose energy channels open after birth. Full of energy, I run up and down the stairs to the attic four or five times. The feeling of weakness has completely disappeared.
Day seven:
Although my body is emaciated and my face is gaunt, I am neither weak nor listless, but the thirst is almost unbearable, my mouth and throat are completely parched. My thoughts are spiraling in my head and I understand madness because I can see it. Tonight at 10 p.m., I am allowed to drink.
Second and third weeks:
I cannot describe the experience of drinking for the first time. My whole being was filled with one wonderful word: THANK YOU!
At the beginning of the second week, I already feel well nourished. I drink diluted juices, and during communal meals, my eyes feast as well and delight in the appetite of those around me. Unlike some other “light-eaters” who feel nourished from the outside, I feel nourished from within. My body is now much closer to me than before; in this closeness, I feel its indescribable distance, feel that I am not it, but that it is my vehicle. An artfully constructed machine that enables the soul to exist on earth. The process has humbled me. My trust in God has become more intense. I see that only God keeps me alive. He is the energy in material food; he is the bread of life. I now have the certainty that one does not necessarily have to die without material food. Direct nourishment from the life energy in which we are embedded is definitely possible. However, I cannot and do not want to imagine not consuming any liquids. I have to leave this contradiction as it is.
There will come a time when humanity will be able to nourish itself in this way. But like so many other soul-opening techniques conveyed by overzealous spirits, this “channeled” process—which works for some individuals but not for most—is not inspired by God. Therefore, I strongly advise against the light nutrition process. I have realized that it is not God’s will to permanently abstain from food, let alone to carry out this process.
Fasting sometimes has its place on the spiritual path, as it purifies the body and soul. However, eating and drinking in moderation is a divine act, corresponding to spiritual nourishment. Eating also liberates the soul bound to matter, as subtle plant and animal substances are released during the digestive process and supplied to the human soul . Moreover, the intake of food opens up the possibility of gratitude to God, both before and after eating and drinking.
When food shortages and famine occur in our latitudes, the Father will feed His own from His Spirit even without this process.
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