My longing (for death)

My longing (for death)
was at times overwhelming,
so that at last I could be
with my beloved Jesus.
Now I see
that it was often flight from life,
and not surrender
to divine life.
Now I die daily
in denying my self-love
and may thus be with Him.
Never will I find words
for this divine grace
and sweetness of death
in His arms.

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