Right at the beginning Jesus speaks: “My children, I would like to speak a word of welcome before you open your hearts in this circle – in mutual trust and in trust in Me – by telling you that I take every word spoken here into My heart. I place it in My mercy, in order to give you the certainty you so urgently need: that I am with you, and that I hear every thought you think and every word you speak at all times.
But at this hour I awaken your words in a special way by placing them in the light that redeems, in the sense that you recognize why certain situations in life encounter you, why this or that happens to you, My child, and you ask yourself: `My God, why do You allow this?!´
And then I say: My child, I test your faithfulness to Me, I test the strength of your faith, for not only do I need the proof of faith and faithfulness; it also shows you where you stand, and that is so important on your path. And all of this – surrender, faithfulness, and sometimes even blind obedience – stands on the ground of humility, which the soul so urgently needs in order to advance on the spiritual path; this humility is the foundation of love, above all.
And here in this circle I place you on this ground of humility by bearing witness to My love for you, so that the soul becomes very small in its own sense, and yet the heart grows out of this smallness and becomes like a spring that gives the water of life, becomes like a tree that gives fruit to the people I lead to you. So it shall be, My children; for this I prepare you, in great things and in small.
So receive these words of welcome in which I embrace you with My love. May My peace penetrate your hearts and souls; enter this place of security in which there is no death, no sorrow, and no worry. I have established this place in every one of you; yet the entrance is truly small, the eye of a needle, and the name of this eye of a needle is humility. Only through it can you reach Me; only then can My Spirit fill you through and through, forever and ever. Amen.”
Discussion round – the brothers and sisters report spiritual experiences and their current state in the life of faith:
A: It was in 2012. I had a heart attack and was taken to the hospital, and there – how shall I put it – I also died. Suddenly I was in an elevator. The door opened, I walked out, and in front of me I saw five people standing there. The fifth was Jesus. In front of those five stood two angels, one in white clothing and the other in black clothing. Then I walked toward Jesus very lightly, you could say almost as though I were flying, without any weight at all. But halfway there – perhaps ten or fifteen meters – the doctors treating me brought me back. Suddenly I was in the elevator again and then awoke in the reality of earthly life. It is an experience I will never forget, especially because Jesus and the two angels were there.
B: The last time, in December, Jesus said through Samuel: `I am a happy God; I am a happy Father.´ It seemed to me as though He said that personally to me, and somehow it has stayed with me ever since. I think that if the Father is happy, His children can be happy too. Only a happy Father can have happy children.
C: I have found the last few weeks energetically very difficult. I am in a situation where I think there has to be a reorientation, inwardly and actually outwardly as well. I hope for inspiration about the direction this reorientation should take. Until now my life had a clear direction. I knew where I wanted to go. But somehow that is gone; perhaps it no longer works the way it used to. The inner direction may already be visible somewhere, but as for what is to be done now, the next steps …
Samuel: You would like a reshaping of your earthly existence?
C: Yes. I feel that everything has run its course; as things are now, it no longer has any meaning.
Samuel: Happiness and contentment outwardly always depend on what is inward, on the condition of the soul. The first priority is to create a center of stillness within yourself so that the outer circumstances can then take corresponding shape. Jesus has already led you along this path toward inner contentment and inner peace. He has borne witness to His love for you and said that He has entered your life and would gladly shape it. Of course, that does not happen from the outside inward, but from the inside outward. Jesus will not immediately change your outward surroundings; first there must arise order and contentment within you through the awareness: I trust Jesus and I am secure with Him. Only then will the outward circumstances change. And you are actually well on your way toward that.
Perhaps it is important not to occupy yourself so much with the world, but in withdrawal to seek this peace, to come into the trust that Jesus wants to fill your soul with His Spirit and that He has a plan for you. But that is possible only if you enter into this surrender, this trust, and also this inner joy that God has called you by your name and wants to fill you with His love.
Yet I sense a resistance in your soul that prevents God from really intervening in your life. Do you sense doubts within yourself that God loves you?
C: I do not think so. It is more that I am very dissatisfied with the way things are right now.
Samuel: Yes, that is a resistance. You are right in the middle of a process. It is not tangible for you, but you sense that something is happening within you, that your consciousness is changing. In this process it is very important not to begin doubting or becoming dissatisfied. This is something the heavenly Father has initiated, and you can go through it only together with Him. It is very important that you remain at His side. You need patience and trust; they are the key to spiritual progress. Work on allowing this dissatisfaction, this barrier within you, to disappear. Go through this process together with Jesus, remain in trust and in love for Him, and everything will dissolve and become clear. It needs patience and time. But this is about eternal life – about how your soul will enter eternity. What is happening now is preparation for that. Sometimes it is beautiful, sometimes extremely unpleasant. But the point is that when you return to your spiritual home you can experience the highest possible blessedness in eternity. This earthly life is the preparation for it. So accept it as it is – and trust.
D: For the winter half-year I had resolved to build a more intimate relationship with Jesus. In the autumn I went through a phase when I thought: first I have to become empty inside – empty of the world, but also of my own ideas and expectations, including spiritual ones. Since I think and brood too much, I thought it was necessary to try to become empty inwardly so that I could switch off. I do not have the physical outlet; I have lacked that all my life, and so my head is always working. (D. is physically disabled and uses a wheelchair.)
I took up an image that has helped me several times: I imagined sitting in an elevator and going deep down into the Earth. The farther down I went, the less noise I perceived and the less my eyes perceived. Then, as it were, I arrived within myself and stripped off everything from the world that was clinging to me. Then the point is to listen inwardly – to listen to Jesus. Not to think about Jesus, not even about spiritual things, but simply to listen and say: whether something comes or not, I want to take a few minutes, or longer if need be, and signal to Jesus: I am listening to You now, or at least I am trying. Then of course one notices how hard that is, because the thoughts immediately return. These two things – emptying oneself and listening – somehow still have to become better connected so that the inner relationship can advance.
Samuel: If your thoughts do not come to rest, it is helpful to imagine that Jesus is listening to you. You think, so to speak, together with Jesus. You include Him in your world of thought and know: Jesus is listening now; He is thinking this thought together with me. Then, even if you cannot quiet your thoughts, you can still establish contact with Jesus.
D: Yes, I do that too. But I sometimes struggle when I have concrete challenges in everyday life. It becomes a balancing act: on the one hand I want to turn to Jesus, and on the other I need a solution to a concrete problem. I often end up researching something on the internet to find solutions and finally solve the problem. Then I think: one thought from Jesus and I would know where the solution lies. I could save myself all that time if Jesus were to say, `You do not need to search yet; your solution will not come for another six months.´ Then I would have inner peace and could concentrate on other things. I have often had situations like this in the last weeks and months. My wish for the new year is that the spiritual and earthly worlds come together in such a way that a flowing transition arises and remains.
E: I find the relationship with Jesus completely uncomplicated. We are His beloved children, and in our midst is our dearest Father – what problems should there be? When we have problems, we lay them before Him in complete trust; nothing more is needed. We simply look more and more to become stronger in love, toward Him and toward our neighbor. Very simple, nothing complicated. `Become like the children,´ it says.
F: Yes, exactly. Between Christmas and New Year I again had severe struggles within me and with myself. Since January it has been better. Last week I noticed: I am becoming completely empty. I thought, What is happening now? This is not pleasant either. But since last week I notice that the emptiness is turning into calm; things no longer irritate me so easily. I accept it and am glad that things are getting better inwardly. I notice fewer thoughts, less vulnerability, less agitation. At the moment I am doing well.
G: When we were driving here today I was amazed. Whenever I ask my Jesus to ride along, the answer is always, `I am already here.´ Normally He addresses me as `My child´, but today it was `My treasure´. I thought, Oh, what is this? Then doubts came as to whether those really were His words, but I said: I will simply accept it. On the way here I also heard: `Why are you looking for Me? I am already here.´ And that is how I feel – that Jesus is always there, no matter where we go, what we see, or whom we meet.
Something else concerns me. My husband and I are both suffering a little at the moment, he in his arm and I in the groin. I would like to be allowed to recognize what these pains are drawing our attention to, what mistakes we keep making, because it is not improving. What are we to change?
Samuel: It is striking that many brothers and sisters currently have physical complaints. Apparently wrong inner attitudes of the soul are now increasingly manifesting in the body and becoming visible. The correspondence is important: What does my arm mean, what does my back mean, what does my groin mean? The right arm, for example, stands for material activity, the left for spiritual activity; the back can stand, among other things, for uprightness, for standing upright in the spirit and not doubting. (The book `Krankheit als Weg: Deutung und Bedeutung der Krankheitsbilder´ by Thorwald Dethlefsen and Ruediger Dahlke can be helpful here.)
This intensified manifestation of wrong attitudes of the soul is not taking place only in individuals but in the world as a whole. The conditions to which the soul of the Earth is now subject are becoming increasingly visible in the material world; the injuries the soul of the Earth has suffered and continues to suffer are becoming materially more perceptible. We see fires breaking out and natural disasters increasing. The time has come when everything of the soul presses into the material and presents itself outwardly so that in the end it can be disempowered, purified, and healed.
H: Could you say what heart problems mean?
Samuel: The heart can only ever mean love and life.
H: Too little love?
Samuel: Yes, or love has been hurt, love has been wounded, or constant worry inhibits the flow of life and love. Then it does not circulate properly in the person, and heart problems arise. It can only have to do with love and life, but it does not necessarily have to be something negative. Are you referring to your heart operation?
H: No. Since Christmas I have noticed that I have breathing problems with exertion. With me it is always the heart, and I do not understand it. Actually, I am a person of the heart …
D: Perhaps it is not even important always to understand it. Of course, if there is a wrong attitude in the soul it would be good to recognize it. But the first step is to say: I accept it for now and trust that Jesus is with me. When one begins brooding, doubts come. I notice that when the head works too much, peace is lost and so is love. The intellect comes to the foreground, and one cannot love with the intellect. The intellect can understand, but love grows weaker when the intellect works too much. And actually it is love that gives the strength to endure and bear it. It is always a balancing act.
Samuel: Jesus says, `Give it to Me gladly.´ If you say, `I have no other choice,´ then there is already a certain resistance and accusation in it. In any case it is a humbling. In your case it is also about life and death. Perhaps Jesus wants you to say – and truly mean it – `Jesus, my life belongs to You in life and in death. Take me; I belong to You.´
H: I have said that so often already. Twice I have lain on the operating table with the awareness that I might not get up again.
Samuel: There is so much within us that we do not know. When we have complaints or are ill, hidden diseased fields of the soul are sometimes humbled and heal without our noticing; redemption takes place hidden in the depths of the soul. Then our consciousness changes seemingly by itself. So it is not absolutely necessary that you get to the bottom of your distress now. What matters is that you enter this humility and surrender, saying anew every day, `Jesus, my life belongs to You,´ so that this sentence completely penetrates your consciousness, so that you surrender with heart and soul and not merely with the intellect.
One brother adds: Every morning I say, `Jesus, You lead me.´ Then I do not need to understand everything, why this or that happens. When I say to Him, `You lead me,´ then I have complete trust in Him. No matter how the day unfolds, in the evening I give thanks that He led me this way or that. In my soul I have given everything to Jesus. I simply trust what He does and how He leads me. Then one does not need to understand everything.
Samuel: Yet that too can trigger a struggle. During the day you have an experience that shakes you to the core, so that you have difficulty entering forgiveness or remaining in your peace. It can take hours, days, or even longer until you have struggled your way back to peace. That is the human side, which is simply there. But it is important that we go through these processes. Once we have clarified something, we are a step farther, because in this surrender a part of our soul has yielded to love and peace.
I: I too have so many thoughts in my head. Sometimes when I go into stillness I feel Jesus very near, and that is wonderfully beautiful. But at other times there are so many thoughts that I cannot manage at all. Together with a friend we have a prayer group in which three of us meet once a week. There the saying of Jesus proves itself: `Where two or three are gathered in My name, there am I in the midst of them.´ I always feel Jesus there, and in my thoughts I can remain completely present. But when I go into stillness alone, unfortunately it often does not work. During the day too I notice again and again how quickly I fall when I am not walking with Jesus. But when one is with Jesus – how beautiful it is, even if only for brief moments. When one loves together with Jesus, it is truly beautiful. I become more and more aware: with Jesus everything is possible and without Him nothing at all. So with His help I am trying not to cling to anything earthly anymore.
J: In any case I would say: do not rebel. I did that after my first divorce; I really rebelled against Jesus, and from then on things went steeply downhill. I would strongly advise against it. I had ten years of anxiety without Him – helplessness, no Jesus there anymore. One has to be careful what one brings upon oneself.
Now I am actually living more spiritually. The outer world does not really interest me much anymore. Jesus is there from morning to evening and I talk with Him; that is my greatest joy. I discuss practically everything with Him; even when I make pancakes I talk with Him. And over the last two years something like a breakthrough has occurred. Every day I can say, `Nearer, my God, to Thee.´ I want what I think, say, and do to please Him. I want to please Jesus every day; that is almost my main focus at present, that Jesus has joy in me.
In 2023 I had two kidney-stone operations. I said, `Dear Jesus, does this really have to be?´ He answered, `Yes, it has to be. I want to draw you still farther away from the world.´ He wants to loosen us from the world. I am becoming increasingly aware that spiritual life is actually the real life, not what is outside. The outer world is there so that I can develop in soul and spirit. All of it serves to ripen my soul and lead it into humility.
I also want to say this: the second separation was emotionally and psychologically terrible for me. I said, `Father, it cannot be that one has to lose everything just in order to get You. Do I really have to lose everything?´ Jesus said, `Yes, you have to lose everything.´ I said, `That cannot be; one has to go so far down that everything is destroyed.´ But today I can say that Jesus is my family.
Samuel: This pain of separation, which is so severe in you, goes back to the separation when you took leave of Jesus. You felt very deep pain before you went into forgetfulness. That pain, that trauma, is reactivated through separation from a person you love. That is why it is so intense for you and almost plunges you into despair. But it also shows you how much you loved Jesus and how much you love Him. I see your separation from Jesus as though a heart were torn into two parts.
J: I have to say that Jesus searched for me. There was an immediate connection, such a powerful connection of the heart, and it has always remained – except when I turned away from Him because I was so dissatisfied with the decisions.
K: I am simply glad that I may be here, that I may belong to the little flock. As for my sciatic pain, I once read that it can come from being unreconciled or unable to forgive. But at the moment I cannot think of anyone against whom I hold anything. I believe my distress has a meaning; I just do not know what it is. I love hiking, but now I am very restricted – am I supposed to refrain from it? Otherwise I am very content. When I cook I always say, `Jesus, may You enjoy the food I have cooked; would You like to eat it too?´ Yes, I talk a lot with Jesus – about everything that comes.
L: I will briefly tell my story. I have grown very fond of Jesus, and a week ago I went down hard on black ice. My bent wrist was between my body and the ice and took the main impact; the radius splintered. My shoulder was hit too – what exactly is wrong with it remains to be seen.
The following Monday I asked Jesus what was going on. He said, `My beloved daughter, it is a necessity for the development of your soul. Also for the people who live with you.´ Since my aunt lives with me, it concerns, so to speak, my whole environment. And He said, `I love you and I want to draw you to My heart now. Trust the doctors; let it happen. I am there. It will be well.´
At the hospital everyone was very kind. Beforehand I had prayed for and blessed everyone involved. I told the anesthetist that I would like to speak with the surgeon before the operation. The surgeon came with a final-semester medical student assisting him. I said to them, `I wish you God’s blessing and guidance for the operation.´ The senior physician asked, `Are you a believer?´ I said, `Yes.´ – `And in whom do you believe?´ – `In Jesus Christ. He is my Lord and Redeemer – who else?´
Then they put me under anesthesia. At the moment I woke up I heard the young assistant say to the senior physician, `We felt the guidance of our hands.´ I was instantly wide awake. For me there could hardly be a greater proof of Jesus’ presence. Perhaps the doctors will come to faith; that would be good.
M: At the moment I also feel very strongly these different waves of energy swirling through the world, and I think we are in a phase of upheaval, personally and outwardly as well. I experience them like jolts that sometimes pass through you. Then there are days when I am really happy and think, Wow! without knowing why. One way to harmonize yourself a little is to spend time with nature, to go out into nature; a great deal comes back from it. I think all of us have too little of that.
Samuel asks whether M still experiences what she previously described as being able to smell vaccinated people.
M: Yes. I smell it everywhere. If we have visitors I have to air the room immediately, or I can smell it on the sofa. It smells, it stinks, like a mixture of metal and decomposition, slightly pungent – a very particular smell. It drifts around everywhere, while shopping, when people walk past, or when they are in your room. It is terrible. The smell clings to you and then you smell like it yourself. I had to shower and wash my hair every evening after work. Does no one else here smell it? No.
N: I do not smell it. What occurred to me is that my husband does not smell it either, but he sees something. He has always had this ability: around people he does not see colors, but rather a bright light or something light, or something gray, or dark clouds. That is how he describes it. Of course we cannot know who is vaccinated and who is not, but he says that lately he sees the darkness around people much more often and much more strongly, especially when we are out. I wondered whether that might be connected with vaccinated people.
Samuel: Has he always had that? Does he have access to God, to Jesus?
N: Yes, to Jesus. And he has always had this seeing. But the increase in seeing darkness – we talked about the fact that we are living in a time of upheaval and that a great deal is now coming to the surface. The inner condition also has to become visible to each individual so that a person can work on himself or face his own issues and ultimately make a decision – for Jesus or for something else.
But what I really wanted was to thank Jesus: `Dearest Father, I thank You with all my heart, because You know what I have been going through for several months, how much is coming at me outwardly and how much I have to handle. I have little time to sit quietly with You and listen to You. And yet You are there the whole time, and for that I thank You deeply. I do not need proof of You, but to experience this mercy now – that You are there despite everything, even when I have to move about so much in worldly matters – fills my heart with gratitude.´
I am employed and have much to do with customers and computer work, and so I cannot pursue spiritual matters in the same way. I am so grateful that Jesus shows me how it can still be done. Brooding is always a trap. When we begin thinking too much, or proceed according to fixed ideas – for example, `I have to give Jesus time; I am so deeply involved in worldly things right now´ – He shows me that we view this too linearly, too humanly. He lives in our hearts, and it is our heart that matters.
Brooding blocks us. I have an image of a dragon that builds itself up huge in order to frighten or unsettle us, confuse us, or lure us in a certain direction. But it merely puffs itself up like a balloon and has no strength. One would only have to prick it with a needle – pfft. I am grateful to Jesus because I have understood that the luciferic spirit thinks it will still defeat Jesus, and so it inflates itself and does all sorts of things to confuse us, draw us out of the heart, and channel us into the intellect.
In the Great Gospel received through Jakob Lorber I found a passage in volume 1 where this image actually occurs. The young men were traveling with Jesus when suddenly a dragon appeared. They were frightened, and Jesus said: `But I am here.´ Then He ordered the angel to put Satan in his place, and the whole spectacle was over. Even though Jesus was visibly present in the flesh, the satanic spirit dared to build itself up and frighten loving people. So it is now as well: the satanic or luciferic spirit seeks to distract, confuse, and frighten us by puffing itself up before us. But Jesus is the victor and He is always with His children.
Samuel: Regarding the puffed-up satanic dragon, something else occurs to me. It looks terrible and dangerous, but it is actually most dangerous as the serpent, because then it sneaks up unseen. It does not puff itself up, but acts deceitfully, and that is the greater danger. Puffed-up evil is easy to see through; one knows what one is dealing with. But the serpent approaches from behind and penetrates the farthest corners of our soul, where we do not look. That is dangerous. This is how it works especially among Christians who already have contact with Jesus and already live in surrender. Satan knows they are no longer so easily frightened by worldly events, so he approaches like a seductive serpent and produces spiritual pride, spiritual comparison and envy, a know-it-all attitude – these kill love. That is the danger to which we are exposed: very subtle processes to which we must pay attention.
O: What the Father said today about humility spoke to me very strongly. I have become a grandmother. My daughter-in-law has gone back to work and everything became too much for my son, so I took the child because I sensed that the Father wants me truly to enter humility here and help. But I always sense Jesus within me. When I wake during the night, He is awake before me; He is always there. And I experience something else: when my attention is drawn to a cross, I know, Ah, now I have something to bear. That happened at Christmas. After such a glance I suddenly developed tension and pain in my shoulder, but Jesus said to me, `Trust Me.´
P: I have a great deal of exhaustion and many challenges in the family, with illness, frailty, and decline. It demands a great deal of me physically and emotionally. There is also some sadness because I feel that at present it is an all-consuming occupation: one procedure after another for my ninety-four-year-old mother, much time in clinics, much caring. Then there is a sister with Alzheimer’s and a partner with, to put it mildly, health challenges.
I have been working on my patterns and issues for a very long time on many levels, and I notice that there is still something to resolve and heal, still another step into humility, still more to accept – or to let go of the expectation that appreciation might someday come. Again and again I go forward anew with my love and my presence and accept it when things slip because the exhaustion is so great, and otherwise simply give what I have to give. I also have to bear the pain of decline. I have the feeling my sister will not be with us much longer, and when I go to the home where her children placed her, people quickly complain: `You have not been here for so long!´ Then I feel I have to justify myself.
So I am learning constantly and have to see that I also have compassion for myself when family dynamics leave me deeply hurt. I sense high sensitivity in my system. Even coming here today on public transportation was difficult for me because the vehicles were too full. It is a daily struggle with what life offers and with my learning processes. I am grateful to be here, to pause and come to rest again instead of losing myself in everything.
Q: Since about the beginning of the year I have experienced a pronounced dynamic: I feel wonderful, as though I am taking off, and then before long I am right down at the bottom again in the same field of personality. Then I think, Look, there are those very dark corners of the soul appearing again. I am surprised by the intensity of these swings. What I ask myself is: what part of this comes from me? Do these good states and then the bad ones come from me, or are there perhaps other influences as well? Of course this also opens the possibility of trying actively to expand the good phases. But sometimes I think, What is going on now? Why does it have to plunge so violently downward again? Those are my experiences in the first weeks of this year.
Samuel: You walk your path with great truthfulness and earnestness. It is indeed the case that the satanic portions of the soul still present in your consciousness begin to rage because they are to be transformed. They do not want to leave you, nor do the equivalent souls that sometimes accompany you want to leave. These are forces acting together and rocking your soul from one extreme to the other. On the one hand you have this contact with Jesus, where you feel vitality, and then you are torn to the other side and are as though dead. This is the raging of death within you, of fallen satanic soul-substance resisting love and wanting to throw you off balance. That is the explanation for why you experience these extremes.
But it is a good sign, for it is proof that you are on the right path. You have Jesus accompanying you, so accept these states. And when these storms rage within you, when you are downcast, then in those moments you may not be able to work with the heart in the same way, but the intellect remains active and you can enter a remembering awareness: Ah, the lower energies are raging now because they are afraid, because they fear that they must leave me and will leave me.
R: My desire always to be consciously connected with Jesus in everyday life is very great, but I do not always manage it. Several times now I have had a very powerful experience. I was occupied with my everyday thoughts and suddenly – truly suddenly, like turning on a light switch – it became completely bright within me. I felt such strong love and such deep peace and knew: Jesus is knocking now. He is touching me so that I consciously think of Him again and open my heart to Him. This has happened several times now. In this way He actively comes to get me again and again. It is a beautiful experience.
S: Jesus says I should show you an image I have carried within me for several days. It fits well with all the stories I have heard here – it is a parable.
In the parable we stand at the very top on one side as people of the world with all our ideas, our thoughts, and so on. Then we go down the path, away from worldly things, where we give up everything that binds us to this world. That is the painful process of letting go. And yes, it is the fear of the satanic portions of the soul that they will die, but only on the way down. When we are at the bottom of the parabola, Jesus is there. With our soul we enter the heart of Jesus, with everything we carry within us in the way of ideas and burdens. Jesus is always there, even when we are at the top, but only at the bottom can we unite with Him. Then, united with Jesus, we go back up the other side into this world. Then we can look at everything with His eyes, with His love. Outwardly it may still appear to be us, but in truth it is then He within us.
And Jesus is simply incredible in my life. I know all the situations in which one can no longer go on and does not know how one is supposed to get up the next day. I once lay on the sofa for half a year, unable to get up and unable to care for my children. But these are phases of humbling in order to find Jesus and to start anew in this world with Him. Yes, He is always there. For me there is only Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, every second.
T: Yes, the worldly energies are becoming more turbulent. One can clearly feel it. Last weekend I took an alkaline bath and then wanted to lie down for a short while. That short rest turned into forty-eight hours. Why? I had such a longing not to hear or see anything at all for once, simply to go inward, not even to read. There were intimate thoughts and wonderfully close moments with Jesus, but also a lot of sleep. It simply did me good.
What I notice is that I do not yet listen one hundred percent to what Jesus wants to show me. For example, when I have a lot of energy – something one does not have every day as one gets older – I want to get everything done at once. Then I think, this too, and that too, and that too. Instead of sitting down, going into my heart, and waiting to see what is called for, I rush off. Then I notice that it may be too much. I want to learn that better. I also still have culinary cravings that I would like to give up entirely – perhaps that is why I currently have stomach or intestinal problems.
What works well for me when there are problems to solve – a car repair, a window repair, a problem with someone – is simply to hand it over to Jesus. I know He will do it well, and I do not need to rack my brains. If I begin trying to organize something intellectually, I notice how badly I feel, and then I stop immediately.
I also wanted to say something else. At our Devotional Gathering, when Jesus again gave each of us a personal word, I felt that we are brothers and sisters in Christ. That is simply something wonderful.
U: At the last Devotional Gathering I was not doing well psychologically. I cannot say why. I simply fell into a really deep hole. But it has changed; at the moment I am doing very well again. My broken hand is progressing. I am so grateful that I can work again and that many things are easier for me to do. And yes, every day I try more and more to do everything together with Jesus, and I feel really good about it.
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Jesus speaks: “My children, so I bring you back again from your trains of thought and unite you again in My peace. Let go of your thoughts and open your hearts now that I stand in your midst. It is My great joy to gather My children around Me. In heaven I am indeed surrounded by countless children of My love, and to them too I give everything I have. But you who dwell here on Earth in matter are exposed to particular dangers, and therefore I give you My love and mercy in a special measure.
You have dared this journey across the Earth. You entered darkness and forgetfulness. I covered within you divine power, the divine light, so that you would be uninfluenced by the force of My will, touched only very lightly by a distant light that kindles within you the longing for vitality and love. Therefore, My children, I have guided and drawn you at all times and do so now, so that this light may become ever greater and stronger, so that you yourselves may become light, so that you may be the light in the darkness of this world.
And you have already become light. You do not see the extent to which I already shine into the darkness of this world in and through you, the extent to which I already use you as instruments of divine power and love. Just as this room is filled with the glory of My presence and I shine wonderfully from My heart into your hearts so that the light within you may become ever stronger and greater, so you are bearers of the torches of love, as in a cave where everything is dark. When a torch is lit, there is light and one can already see some distance; not only oneself, but others too are drawn to this light. Thus, at My hand, you have become fellow workers in My vineyard, My children, well aware of the weakness and imperfection to which you are still subject.
Yet this keeps you in humility. It is good when you acknowledge your weaknesses and sins. To the thoughts, `My God, why do You choose me? I am an imperfect human being; I still have so many faults and weaknesses. I am not worthy to live in Your presence. I am not worthy to work for You in my weakness,´ I say: precisely this acknowledgment draws Me to you, My child. The acknowledgment of your weakness is the basic condition for My being able to fill you with My Spirit, for then you do not fill yourself with yourself, but give Me room in this attitude of humility.
You have been born into this world in this end-time phase, in this last time, as it is called. And it is very important, My children, that you already be active in this time. Yet the motive for walking the spiritual path should not be that you earn merit before Me, but that you love Me, independently of what happens outwardly. Love for Me alone should be the motive for walking the path of truth and life. And even if the predicted events did not occur, let each of you ask: `What would that do to me? Would I be disappointed? Would I still walk the path so intensely? Is it truly only about love for Jesus for me, with everything else secondary?´
Ask your heart too whether it is already free from the world and wholly directed toward Me, in life and in death. If I were to say to you, `My child, tomorrow I will call you away,´ what then? What would you think? Would you be full of joy to be with Me? Or full of melancholy at leaving this world? Everything that still binds you to the world – your family, your work, your leisure, your addictions – can you leave it all from one day to the next? Without pain, without worry? Free for Me? Are you ready?
Therefore it is so important, My beloved, that you begin freeing yourselves from all this now. When I call you out of the body, earthly bonds continue to exist. Then it can happen that in looking back and holding on you lose sight of Me, and I have to let you go again because you do not want or are not able to continue at My hand.
Many have said, `My Father, I rejoice to be with You.´ Then the moment came and they could not let go of this world, of family bonds, of comforts and pleasures to which they were still attached.
(Regarding letting go of those we love, Jesus later said that first He wants a proof of love and faithfulness, that our love for Him is stronger than our love for our earthly family. But once we have entered His realm of the heart with Him without looking back, we may be with our loved ones in spirit together with Him and may influence them. He said this in a whisper, with indescribably loving eyes, as though it were a secret.)
These are serious words, My children, with which you are to ask yourselves where you stand. For now, let go of thoughts about what time you live in, and receive this one thought within yourselves: to become one with Me in love, independently of everything outward. Amen.”
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Beloved heavenly Father, Your word has touched us deeply. You always tell us the truth; You do not make things sound prettier than they are, but tell us what is necessary so that we may grow more and more into love for You, into spiritual life. We carry within us this longing always to be allowed to be with You, and already on this Earth You give us Your presence: on the one hand by calling us together here in the circle and speaking to us, and on the other hand by accompanying us in everyday life.
According to our longing You are with us; according to our deeds of love You accompany us and lead us onto the paths You have prepared for us. We long so deeply for security, dear Father, for those minutes and times when we sense that You are with us, when we feel vitality within us and joy. And then times come again when we do not sense You; then we feel as though dead, lifeless in the awareness: `My Father, what am I to do now? I do not sense You; I feel abandoned by You.´ These times alternate, dear Father. And yet …
Jesus takes over: “… it is also My wish, My children, that you come into an evenness, an evenness of love, that this up and down may end, this high and low, this life and death. For I need children who stand on firm spiritual ground, whom no storm can harm anymore, who know that I am with them, who feel My strength in their souls, in their hearts. I want to give you this awareness. Everything you experience is directed toward leading you into this place of divinity, so that your soul and your sphere may be filled with this love and you can move continually within it, bearing witness to Me – then you are witnesses of My love.
What does it mean now to be a child of God in this world? I did not say and do not say: I send you out and there will be peace wherever you go. Rather I said and say to you: you are to bring peace into the world. I did not say and do not say: everything will be love and light. Rather you go into the darkness and you are to be the light where I place you.
These words which I once spoke to you and speak to you now are firmly anchored in your soul. From them the awareness has arisen within you to live as children of God. In certain aspects of your soul you see what is necessary in love for your neighbor. Forgiveness is so important, patience with your fellow human beings, often restraint when you are attacked, and at the right time speaking of Me and proclaiming My Gospel: Jesus Christ is love; only with Him are there life, truth, and light.
You have already recognized all these aspects of being children of God and have tried to live them. And on the path you now walk in this way, I am with you. On the one hand there are moments when you feel secure in My love, when I put My arm around you, take you by the hand, and we walk a piece of the way together. Then again there comes a time when I let you go and you walk alone. Often you then fall into darkness with the worry, `Jesus, I do not feel You.´
And yet I am with you. I simply no longer make Myself perceptible and tangible to you, but break the felt connection so that you stand on your own spiritual feet and in this apparent aloneness use the divine power within you to do My works, which otherwise you do at My hand, so that in a certain sense you become adults in the spiritual. Naturally it is still My power that is active within you, and in truth it is I within you who then works through you – but in the independence of your divine identity, which you are to possess in eternity.
One day the time will come when I will always be visible to you, namely when you have realized your divine independence. But it is not yet that far, and so do not wish too soon to see Me. Remain patient and trust that I am with you. It is important that this foundation of faith grow ever stronger, nourished by trust and surrender through My word alone.
My children, love one another as I love you. Be a unity in love; then you form a part of My body on this Earth. And when differences of opinion arise, let love always be what reunites you. Put away everything that separates you and always choose love. For love is the means that connects you with one another and connects and unites you with Me.
Often in My congregations and communities there are differences of opinion because the human element still stands in the foreground. Everyone wants to be right in his own opinion – and then love is lost. Then there is strife, disagreement, and separation. Such a circle breaks apart, and that is very regrettable, for I formed these communities for good reason.
And you know it, My children: this community here that meets again and again, My little flock, has already made great progress. I have raised you to a certain spiritual level. Your consciousness is already penetrated by My Spirit in many respects. With that your responsibility too has increased. Yet the ultimate responsibility I bear as God, for I gave it to you and it goes back to Me. Your task is faithfulness. I assume responsibility for what I bring into life, with you and through you. So be the children as whom I called and raised you. Be faithful to Me in love. Continue this path together with Me, and our plan will succeed. For everything I bring into life must ultimately succeed. It is only a question of time. Amen.”
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